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Everything will be fine.
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You were wearing that beautiful green dress and with that, a smile that I’ll never forget. I was not even sure if you were the one. Good thing I remembered that smile, when I saw you for the very first time. It was almost an hour of waiting, for you to arrive. I ask myself is she still coming?… While I was waiting for you, I looked back during those times when we used to talk all night and had those silly conversations. I was very excited to have those special moments again but this time it is right next to you. I have waited for so long just to feel your warm embrace and to be with you even for just a week.
It was a week that we’ll never forget. We had so much laughter that we made the best memories together. Memories that we can share to our grandchildren and even to their grandchildren . A week that nobody can take from us. It was the turning point of my life. Realizing that I want to spend my whole life being with you. To the point that I just don’t want to let go.
Time has come when all that laughter are turning into dust, I was about to leave you. After a week of sleepless nights and wonderful morning together, we need to face again the reality. The reality that is keeping us apart. Facing the fact that maybe one day the odds may never want to see us together.
Our love is made up of trust and constant communication. Never holding back on each other. Having those moments, just to say good morning and just falling asleep during those nights we talk and laughed. I wish we can be together right now.. Maybe, someday we will. All I wish for is that we can still feel this way even if things had change.
Life will never tell us what will happen tomorrow, so I always remind myself how we fell in love and how we made it, against all odds.
How to understand someone you can’t understand?
How to voice out something to someone superior?
How to stop tears when you are about to cry?
How’s in my life.
Anong gagawin mo pag nagsama ang salitang “assume” at “expectation” sa loob ng utak mo? Tatalon ka ba sa pinakamataas na lugar? Kukuha ka ba ng kutsilyo at papatigilin ang pag hinga mo? O bibili ka nalang ng lubid? Syempre, imposibleng gawin mo yan. Minsan sa mga ganitong sitwasyon, natutulala ka na lang. Napapaisip, napapaisip ng mga tanong na hindi mo naman mahanap kung ano ang sagot. At kahit ilang beses nang nangyari sayo, alam mo padin sa sarili mo na masakit padin. Hindi ka pa din nasasanay. Hindi ka padin natututo. Pikit-matang tatanggapin nalang. Matutulog, at umaasang sa pag gising mo, wala na. Wala na lahat ng bangungot. Haharapin ng panibagong ikaw ang isang panibagong araw. Magsasaya na parang walang nangyari. Hanggang…..maulit nanaman ang lahat, lahat ng bagay na pilit mong binaon sa lupa. At kahit hiyang-hiya ang Pacific Ocean sa sobrang lalim ng pagkakalubog mo sa nangyari, pilit na mahuhukay ito at mangyayari muli.
• Doubts ruining my trust to someone.
• Can’t understand why do I have to feel all of these shts. (Fck)
• Missed the Lantern Festival. =’(
• Fell asleep last night, so I wasn’t able to reply to his message. And he really needs someone to talk to. I feel so guilty.
• I think I’m too selfish. Simpleng favor, hindi ko magawa. I can’t give her what she wants.
• I am envious right now.
• Can’t find the words “cheer up”.
See how I welcome year 2013? Full of negative thoughts. I should stop worrying right now, and do some stuffs that will make me fine. (Stop it, Fran. Dramas won’t help you.)
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it.
They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.